i know its been a long time since I've posted anything i have been meaning to do more [and believe me i have so many drafts here] but times gotten away from me, and we all know my laptop drives me insane, but today is a blogging day!
and as we head into the second half of this year i thought it would be good to reflect on the last 6months and the next 6months to come [trying to learn to get my motivation back]
ok - my doomsday list - how much has actually been achieved...
1) Become a Queen - well i am one arnt i? in my mind lol, i think proper royalty would drive me insane!
2) Step foot on every country in Europe - working progress, I'm going to the Czech Republic in August which will be my first time on mainland Europe, and shall hopefully be going to Germany in November!
3) Go To Inferno Metal Festival 2012..and 13...14...ect went to 2012, was weird being back in Oslo, when i think last time i was there i had the whole world at my feet, going back i felt a little bit like a failure, but I've accepted things didn't work out how i dreamed, and that i would, if given the choice, do it all over again the same... was an amazing week as always though!
4) After Bruce get no more ink until next winter...unless overseas i got a tattoo in Oslo, but apart from that I've been good! [slowly saving up] so many i want, but i will wait!! to at least October hehe
5) Save Money! - 1K by end of year can honestly save this will NOT happen! i wish i could, but i cant, i think I'm actually getting worse with my money sadly...
6) learn to speak and write Norwegian i tried those CDs n all i can say is 'no', 'yes' and 'thanks' i still have faith I'll be able to say a sentence at least before I'm back in Norway again...
7) study - adult courses or online nope =/ i say i miss studying and i want to study but i don't seem to really do anything about it - but next September i can at least go to uni! if i get in...
8) start morning jogging...get fit n healthy...include eat healthier! oh like this was ever going to happen!!! i cant afford a gym, tho i want to do Thai boxing, i do feel healthier tho, n i think I've actually lost weight! if only an inch
9) finish my book by end of year or turn it into a sellable film script haven't touched them! i know its sad, its all in my mind but i just cant seem to get to writing/typing them out
10) maintain my blogs...launch blog 3 well tumblr is going good as usual, lol, this one i WILL be better with n i am going to get a wordpress for all my creative writings!
11) Get a new job nope, but my job is getting better! the two people i hated left a couple months ago - sad thing is now some of my faves are leaving
12) visit more museums/galleries i haven't had the time sadly, but i plan too
13) Go to infest yeah not happening, this doesn't bother me though
14) give up drinking - save for NYE i lasted 20 days =( though i have given up again [as of mid April] i know i ALWAYS say this, but i honestly think i can do it this time
15) attend at least one gig a month nope =/ id like to, but haven't the money, and i work the wrong hours for it - recently I've had a few gigs though, and more coming up!
16) get Scarification by 3rd 20ths b'day that's next year! i still want it - but i don't think ill get it, i think i want it more for the pain side, and well it wont look good - so I'm getting inked instead and ill find other ways for my pain outlet ;)
17) get a PhD well it ain't gonna happen over night! if i get into uni next year - watch out world!
18) finish legally changing my name really gotta get onto this =/
19) move into a sharehouse YES!! as of April 29th! its going really well, i sadly don't seem them much [i don't work social hours] but I'm enjoying it, I'm glad i chose to live with friends, and especially ones that have kitty cats!
20) work at a museums haven't even looked into it
21) lecture at a University give me a couple more years...
22) go to a westend play...and a theatrical stage play like Shakespeare when summer hits? hopefully
23) contribute something to the world that won't be forgotten...a legacy working progress - ask em when I'm dead...
24) Visit both the North and South Pole it'll happen - again give ma a couple of years
25) go to a camping music festival BRUTAL ASSAULT 2012!! Czech Republic, I'm so excited, the line up looks awesome, n its super cheap, i had! and i am! I'm so excited for August, but super scared! i should survive though....
26) get a bookcase to organise my mini library all my books are on a pile on the floor =/
27) get my left nostril pierced n man up and get my tongue pierced haven't the cash, I'm hoping tongue next time I'm on holidays, we shall see... nostril when i got the cash
28) Save for a better laptop nope, ipod got stolen so that's my priority ATM
29) learn to ski or snowboard haven't had the chance yet, but it will happen! i think id make a well cute snow bunny
30) get over the past (especially the failings) yeah, though sometimes i do slip into a spiral of self loathing when something triggers a past memory, but don't we all at times?
31) learn to drive again don't have the money, but its still a goal
32) Live in Norway one day -sighs-
33) Walk among the Cherry Blossoms in Japan 2014?
34) Visit North Korea 2015...?
35) Buy a Digital SLR nope, but my [biological] mum is visiting in Oct and giving me her old cam, which is fancy, no DSLR but close...
36) See the Northern Lights I'm really hoping for next year on this one
So my conclusion, most of my goals wont happen over night, but at least i have something to work for - I'm the kind of person that wants meaning to my life, whether i follow that meaning or not!
The major thing i want for the rest of the year [apart from the usual, have more money and be healthier] is to finally see sex as a positive! its a slow thing, and I'm not sure if it\'ll happen, but i have to try, or to at least explore what my real issue with it is...there will be a blog to explain it more coming soon...
and now act two of 2012 begins...
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