but right now i'm really fucking annoyed and we know misery likes company, so welcome to hell brother!
Ok for this to make a little more sense I shall invite you into the back story…please be patient this is worth reading [‘cause peoples pain makes me smile hehe]
So first off here is the bulletin I posted on myspace and vampirefreaks.
“y does this world have to b so obsessed with money
there r 2 gigs i MUST go to [screamfest side show and of course INFERNO]
however...
Screamfest atm is gonna cost me $300 and INFERNO probs $350-400
and i ONLY have $250...and ONLY making $80 a week
and INFERNO goes on sale in 1week...so i MUST get tix 2 that soon
and Screamfest melb show pass is already on sale...and i KNOW that will sell out!
i'm soo fucking broke...i've had to ask my dad for $300 so i can go to some bloody concerts
music y do i have to love u so!
i'm now waiting for his reply...and my fate...wish me luck =)
gah, yea no social life for me...till nxt yr ALWAYS WORTH IT THO!
yea jst thought i'd let kno how my life is...coz its sat and i got nothing on...and u r all partying lol
catch
xx
616=13”
so basically I was REALLY fucking excited to hear about the Melb side shows cos there is NO FUCKING WAY I’d ever be able to afford to go to Screamfest in Sydney. So I waited nervously all night…no txt, woke up in the morning and when I turned on my phone…I got a text =D…bt it was only from a mate
DAM U SIMON! Giving me false hope!
Anyway back on topic, so I get a call from my dad late afternoon…tells me he doesn’t have the money at the moment, but give him a couple of days and he can give me $300!!!!!
I’m sure you can imagine how happy I was.
Now I can afford BOTH gigs! That equal 8 nights of METAL! [four in Jan, four in April].
So I was dead happy, telling everyone I could. My sister didn’t really give a shit, but at least she said awesome. you know when I’m excited I don’t give a shit if you care or not, just please be a NICE FUCKING FRIEND and encourage my happy mood.
So my mum arrived home about 10minutes ago, so we started talking and I told her about the sideshows, and how much it would cost, and how it was on sale same time as INFERNO…and half way through she started to flick through the newspaper.
The only response I got was ‘shit that’s a lot of money’
Then I started to tell her how happy I was that dad was lending me the money and I didn’t even get the whole sentence out before she started to comment on the AFL scores. Then she walked off to the TV.
Leaving me standing there alone like an unloved idiot!
I know people are telling me, be happy at least you are going to the gigs. But I don’t care. All I wanted to do is share what was happening in my life with someone who I thought loved me and cared about me life.
But when I think about it. I am NOT at all shocked that she doesn’t care. She never tells me about ANYTHING in her life [actually no-one in my family tells me anything!]…took her about 6months to tell us about her boyfriend, and when she did she lied about how longs they’ve known each other and even HOW they met.
I really should have learnt by now, she’s never really ever been interested in my life. Never asked me to tell her tales of NORWAY but spent hours telling me about PERU.
I use to have one comforting thought…when I move to the UK I’ll be rid of her, and that way I she might actually care about my life.
I WAS WRONG! she is planning on coming to the UK with me…to help me ‘settle in’
NO FUCKING JOKE!
First she kills my happiness of my up-coming gigs. Then my excitement of moving overseas. =(
Ok I shall stop now, sorry for the long bitchy rant. But better I write it then constantly talk about it right??
Good night all. Its another wasted Sunday, so for the last couple of hours I have I shall attempt some homework…but I wouldn’t hold your breath.
Catch
xx
616=13
