LIFE IN A DAY - FOREVER IN A MEMORY

 

~ Me: 24/07/10 ~

LIFE IN A DAY: Documentary filmed by everyday people from around the world and put together by Ridley Scott & Tony Scott - in itself it sounds like such a beautiful idea, one that grabbed my attention - so i picked up the dvd to have a closer look....


24th JULY 2010 of all the dates in all of life they picked that date for people to film!! To most this is just an ordinary Saturday! i met most people cant even remember what they did on this day! 
But to me - this day means a lot more, its a day ill never forget [well weekend, i always matched it with the 25th as hours blur into one]

My tattoo Samael i got done 25th July 2011 [24th was a sunday so place was closed]...i choose that date as a 'one year from' immortalising it for myself...

Why is this day so special to me? [yes i'm in a typing mood]
A quick back story so you can understand the emotions of the time...
I moved to Bristol, UK April 2010, i found out that one of my facourite bands ever [Sybreed] where playing in london June 18th - i had never been to london! This was the perfect oppurtunity!
I didnt get to see much of London that day [i arrived late] but the gig was amazing! at the gig i met three amazing people! [who are still dear to me today] they dragged me to a club after called Slimelight...i had never been to a club like that before, it was lovely! it was the night life i had been craving for!!
there i met a very attractive guy - we hit it off, danced, kissed....
i left, i didnt get his contact details, but i decided i was moving to london!!

Thanks to the beauty of the internet, a few days later this boy found me on FB - we talked heaps! our minds where in sync, and physically speaking gorgeous [not love, but i was definitely in lust with him] i decided id go back to London the weekend of 24th of July - to meet up with the people i met at the gig, go clubbing again - and meet up with this boy!
those next few weeks went by so slowly! i was so excited to go back to london!

 ~ At the Fox, before going to Slimes
24/07/10~

JULY 24TH 2010!
I went around London a little, saw Camden Market for the first time! Went to The Fox for pre-drinks [where i met another of their friends -  who is also now one of my closest friends] also met a lovely girl [in the toilets as you do] who is also one of the 'besties' though i dont see her too much =/
and of course, when we got to slimes i met up with this boy again! [his eyes my gosh!]
I'm not going to go into all the details - but i did leave with him [i was a virgin]
I know no one has a perfect 'first time' and im no exclusion, i had never even given or recieved oral before! it wasnt pretty, it wasnt magical, i had no idea really what the hell i was doing, and yes it bloody hurt!
i wasn't dating him! actually turned out he didnt feel the same way as me  [yeah i had developed a bit of a crush on him] it was just a bit of fun, which is fair enough, sure at the time it crushed me! but i dont regret it, i felt ready, i do believe losing your virginity is a big thing - but that doesnt mean you have to love the person or be in a relationship with them, its not about them in my eyes -  its about you!

i moved to London [offically] 23td August 2012 - been here ever since, i love it [all the experiences, good and bad!], i still see all the people i had met with that day! that club is like a second home for me now - actually 90% of my friends in London i have actually met there!

As you can see, it wasnt any old weekend for me...and i am speechless that the was the date chosen for this film, i had to watch this film [really beautiful, so natural] but it did bring tears to me eys, good tears? i'm not sure, people day "When the first drops of tears comes from the RIGHT EYE, it's HAPPINESS.
But when the first roll is from the LEFT EYE, it's PAIN." it was my left eye...

mid year reflections..

i know its been a long time since I've posted anything i have been meaning to do more [and believe me i have so many drafts here] but times gotten away from me, and we all know my laptop drives me insane, but today is a blogging day! and as we head into the second half of this year i thought it would be good to reflect on the last 6months and the next 6months to come [trying to learn to get my motivation back] ok - my doomsday list - how much has actually been achieved...  

1) Become a Queen - well i am one arnt i? in my mind lol, i think proper royalty would drive me insane! 
2) Step foot on every country in Europe - working progress, I'm going to the Czech Republic in August which will be my first time on mainland Europe, and shall hopefully be going to Germany in November!
3) Go To Inferno Metal Festival 2012..and 13...14...ect went to 2012, was weird being back in Oslo, when i think last time i was there i had the whole world at my feet, going back i felt a little bit like a failure, but I've accepted things didn't work out how i dreamed, and that i would, if given the choice, do it all over again the same... was an amazing week as always though!  
4) After Bruce get no more ink until next winter...unless overseas i got a tattoo in Oslo, but apart from that I've been good! [slowly saving up] so many i want, but i will wait!! to at least October hehe  
5) Save Money! - 1K by end of year can honestly save this will NOT happen! i wish i could, but i cant, i think I'm actually getting worse with my money sadly...
6) learn to speak and write Norwegian i tried those CDs n all i can say is 'no', 'yes' and 'thanks' i still have faith I'll be able to say a sentence at least before I'm back in Norway again...  
7) study - adult courses or online nope =/ i say i miss studying and i want to study but i don't seem to really do anything about it - but next September i can at least go to uni! if i get in...  
8) start morning jogging...get fit n healthy...include eat healthier! oh like this was ever going to happen!!! i cant afford a gym, tho i want to do Thai boxing, i do feel healthier tho, n i think I've actually lost weight! if only an inch
9) finish my book by end of year or turn it into a sellable film script haven't touched them! i know its sad, its all in my mind but i just cant seem to get to writing/typing them out  
10) maintain my blogs...launch blog 3 well tumblr is going good as usual, lol, this one i WILL be better with n i am going to get a wordpress for all my creative writings!  
11) Get a new job nope, but my job is getting better! the two people i hated left a couple months ago - sad thing is now some of my faves are leaving
12) visit more museums/galleries i haven't had the time sadly, but i plan too  
13) Go to infest yeah not happening, this doesn't bother me though  
14) give up drinking - save for NYE i lasted 20 days =( though i have given up again [as of mid April] i know i ALWAYS say this, but i honestly think i can do it this time
 15) attend at least one gig a month nope =/ id like to, but haven't the money, and i work the wrong hours for it - recently I've had a few gigs though, and more coming up!  
16) get Scarification by 3rd 20ths b'day that's next year! i still want it - but i don't think ill get it, i think i want it more for the pain side, and well it wont look good - so I'm getting inked instead and ill find other ways for my pain outlet ;)  
17) get a PhD well it ain't gonna happen over night! if i get into uni next year - watch out world!  
18) finish legally changing my name really gotta get onto this =/  
19) move into a sharehouse YES!! as of April 29th! its going really well, i sadly don't seem them much [i don't work social hours] but I'm enjoying it, I'm glad i chose to live with friends, and especially ones that have kitty cats!  
20) work at a museums haven't even looked into it
21) lecture at a University give me a couple more years...  
22) go to a westend play...and a theatrical stage play like Shakespeare when summer hits? hopefully  
23) contribute something to the world that won't be forgotten...a legacy working progress - ask em when I'm dead...  
24) Visit both the North and South Pole it'll happen - again give ma a couple of years  
25) go to a camping music festival BRUTAL ASSAULT 2012!! Czech Republic, I'm so excited, the line up looks awesome, n its super cheap, i had! and i am! I'm so excited for August, but super scared! i should survive though....  
26) get a bookcase to organise my mini library all my books are on a pile on the floor =/  
27) get my left nostril pierced n man up and get my tongue pierced haven't the cash, I'm hoping tongue next time I'm on holidays, we shall see... nostril when i got the cash  
28) Save for a better laptop nope, ipod got stolen so that's my priority ATM  
29) learn to ski or snowboard haven't had the chance yet, but it will happen! i think id make a well cute snow bunny  
30) get over the past (especially the failings) yeah, though sometimes i do slip into a spiral of self loathing when something triggers a past memory, but don't we all at times?  
31) learn to drive again don't have the money, but its still a goal  
32) Live in Norway one day -sighs-  
33) Walk among the Cherry Blossoms in Japan 2014?  
34) Visit North Korea 2015...?  
35) Buy a Digital SLR nope, but my [biological] mum is visiting in Oct and giving me her old cam, which is fancy, no DSLR but close...  
36) See the Northern Lights I'm really hoping for next year on this one

So my conclusion, most of my goals wont happen over night, but at least i have something to work for - I'm the kind of person that wants meaning to my life, whether i follow that meaning or not! The major thing i want for the rest of the year [apart from the usual, have more money and be healthier] is to finally see sex as a positive! its a slow thing, and I'm not sure if it\'ll happen, but i have to try, or to at least explore what my real issue with it is...there will be a blog to explain it more coming soon... and now act two of 2012 begins...

Doomsday Awaits No Man

Although i don't believe the Doomsday thing i thought it would be good to make a bucket list to coincide with my New Year Resolutions! obviously some of these things will take me years, or more, but i hope to cross them all off, one way or another!

1) Become a Queen
2) Step foot on every country in Europe
3) Go To Inferno Metal Festival 2012..and 13...14...ect
4) After Bruce get no more ink until next winter...unless overseas
5) Save Money! - 1K by end of year
6) learn to speak and write Norwegian
7) study - adult courses or online
8) start morning jogging...get fit n healthy...include eat healthier!
9) finish my book by end of year or turn it into a sellable film script
10) maintain my blogs...launch blog 3
11) Get a new job
12) visit more museums/galleries
13) Go to infest
14) give up drinking - save for NYE
15) attend at least one gig a month
16) get Scarification by 3rd 20ths b'day
17) get a PhD
18) finish legally changing my name
19) move into a sharehouse
20) work at a museums
21) lecture at a University
22) go to a westend play...and a theatrical stage play like Shakespeare
23) contribute something to the world that won't be forgotten...a legacy
24) Visit both the North and South Pole
25) go to a camping music festival
26) get a bookcase to organise my mini library
27) get my left nostril pierced n man up and get my tongue pierced
28) Save for a better laptop
29) learn to ski or snowboard
30) get over the past (especially the failings)
31) learn to drive
32) Live in Norway
33) Walk among the Cherry Blossoms in Japan
34) Visit North Korea
35) Buy a Digital SLR
36) See the Northern Lights

Well all i can say is i've had the best NYE EVER! ok i was a little drunk both Friday and Saturday nights and my legs are still killing me from all the dancing! but i had so much fun with my Freaky Family!!
BRING ON 2012 is all i can say ^___^